When the first thing that came up when I wanted to add media was my resume, it means I’ve spent way too much energy in real life and not enough in my own head. I’ve had a few spurts of creativity, and I would say in general I’m beginning to feel like my old self, before I essentially got destroyed by a lethal combination of way too many crash courses in reality for my own liking. It’s still hard really forgetting everything to do art but it can actually happen again now. I’m not really in a painting phase though, just digital and sketching.
A week or so ago I spent four zoned out hours on my boyfriend’s couch while he played Dragon Age, completely immersed in this drawing below. I got the idea pretty early on into the sketching and fully committed to it in a single sitting like I so love to do. I don’t know the last time I successfully combined gradient shading with actual lineart. I also used a layer filter, which I rarely do in finished pieces, but I fricking love what it did to the colors. I call her Awake. Or something. Yeah. Awake. Like me. Like I’m trying to be.
I’ve been mulling over a supervillainesse story for a little over a month now, and I’ve done three or four drafts of the first page, trying to get her look right, and the vibe right, and of course, the accursed media choices right. Traditional pencil lines? Traditional pen lines? Digital lines? I DON’T KNOW, I feel like I just need to surrender to the calling of pencil lines and try adding in the text boxes on the computer. In that case I ruined my second draft by starting to pen the hand and then essentially chickening out, and my fourth draft was a rather sad attempt to “go crazy” and only use pen, without sketching.
Anyway, when I briefly started to do digital lines I pulled out my tablet and sat on my bed and felt myself sync up with myself of years past, and it was sublime and so I sketched myself in that zone and then, you know, I started doing digital comic lines and hated them and kind of in a way contradicted the whole self portrait style, only not quite.
Also, VIDEO GAMES, OH MY GOD, TRANSISTOR. GO LOOK AT THAT ART SON. om. nom. nom. nom. I MEAN IT’S LIKE, GATSBY + SCI FI + DIGITAL PAINTING…LIKE FOR THE ENTIRE GAME.